Running.....

Ever wish you could just run...as fast and as far as you could possibly go?

I know when life gives you lemons you are supposed to make lemonade....but what do you do when you are tired of lemonade? Eventually, too much of anything will choke you.

So what would happen if you really just ran? If you got up and just did it? It makes me think about that movie called "The Hours" that came out several years ago. Julieanne Moore (did I spell her name right?) played a woman who couldn't take her life and made a decision not to kill herself, but to leave her husband and child to start a new life without them. The movie shows the outcome of decision in the life of her grown son and the issues he has (supposedly) because of her actions.

John Rzeznik says it all:

They painted up your secrets
With the lies they told to you
And the least they ever gave you
Is the most you ever knew

And I wonder where these dreams go
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screaming
No one's listening anyway

So what should she have done? Stay there so everyone else could be happy? Should it be right for her to be the only one who didn't get to have what they wanted (and needed) in life? When you choose to have children, your right to happiness comes after theirs. That's just how it is. It comes with the decision to have kids. But not all people make their children a priority.

Responsibility is four letter word disguised as something "mature". Marriage, mortgages, extended family, community commitments etc. are all things that can add up until they smother the life out of you. Sometimes I would like to go back to the time when someone else cooked the meals and washed the clothes. You truly don't know how good you have it when you are little. You are too busy trying to grow up. Always running....

Julieanne Moore's character was running from all those things and maybe more. There was a scene where she was trying to bake a birthday cake and it was just more than she could handle. Some days I can relate to that - sad to say.

There are so many unanswered questions out there. Sometimes I think there are even more unanswered questions in here (my head). But what do you do when your life has taken a direction that is unfulfilling?

Suck it up and smile?